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I don’t have words to describe God. How can I describe the indescribable?

Words are meaningless. When a certain meaning in one language very often can’t even be accurately interpreted in another, how can one even describe the “allness” and “everythingness” of God. S/he is beyond words.

 People try to define God, but what they have is the concept of God they have created overtime—consciously or subconsciously—from all kinds of different sources. Their experiences with other people, religious upbringings, social/cultural influences etc etc. Mine is no exception.

Mythology Aquarius

“Do not be satisfied with the stories that come before you. Unfold your own myth.”

 Do I believe in whatever called God? I believe I do—but I don’t feel the need to explain. The belief of God is too personal to describe. I do, however, don’t think that “God” needs me to come to His/Her Kingdom by doing certain things. I don’t believe God has ever asked me to do something in order for me to be worthy of His/Her blessings. That’s what human beings do:  “Do something for me and I will reward you in return.” I am not sure that’s what God does. I am not sure God ever judges me, that’s what human beings do. They have the tendency to judge. The thing is, too often I hear human beings talk about God, and then make Him/Her get down to their level. Oh well humans (that’s including me), the allness and everythingness is the Know It All. Do you know it all?

 What’s wrong with doing something for the sake of your own goodness? I am quite positive this “inkling” of what is morally right and wrong comes from somewhere (i.e God?) for us to use. Unfortunately what is intrinsically right is usually the most difficult and or challenging to do! (Who said Jesus led an easy life?)

 All I know, this God of mine has always seemingly given me what I want and honestly, I am very often not wise enough to know what I want, exactly. But S/he never fails—S/he always answer my prayers.

 “It may be that our role on this planet is not to worship God – but to create him.”

Arthur C. Clarke

 -D

These pictures were taken in October along Hwy 2 to Leavenworth from Western Washington.

It’s pretty interesting to see the changing leaves colliding with the evergreens-and since I am lost for words to describe the changing leaves and what they bring poetically, I’ll let the pictures do their work.

The air is crisp and cold, wet and rainy

-D

I know I’ve been a year older since my last writing and my reason is pretty lame: I’ve been caught up in the daily, sometimes mundane life. Have a lot of thoughts but nothing comes out in writing. Days, months and another year have passed me by and now, listening to memorable old songs, I ask myself again: Where have all the days gone? Where have all the flowers gone, long time passing?

My dog is getting older, not sure if he’s wiser—but he’s seen three summers now.

Where have all the flowers gone, long time passing? Where have all the flowers gone, long time ago? Where have all the flowers gone? Young girls have picked them everyone. Oh, when will they ever learn? Oh, when will they ever learn?  (Peter, Paul, Mary)

Where have all the flowers gone, long time passing? Where have all the flowers gone, long time ago?
Where have all the flowers gone? Young girls have picked them everyone. Oh, when will they ever learn?
Oh, when will they ever learn?  (Peter, Paul, Mary)

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2014 in review

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In Memoriam: 7 Winnie

It’s been a while since my last blog…

 Winnie the cockatiel had to be put down to sleep due to his illness on November 15. Didn’t take him long to draw the last breath after the injection. Then the heart stopped. Just like that, and he was gone peacefully–because it looked like he was smiling and appeared peaceful in his deep sleep. I’d like to think that he passed away painlessly, in peace and happier now wherever he is and whatever he does—my curious mind always wonders what happens to these little critters after their little bodies are gone. Do they go to the rainbow bridge? Do they know they are in a different realm? Or maybe they are still here, it’s just I can’t see them with my physical eyes or listen to them with my physical ears.

 I hadn’t been emotionally very close to Winnie for the past year or so (my hubby had been taking care of him for the most part) but Winnie still leaves an empty hole inside me. Can see no more Winnie and the only consolation I have is the faith that somehow, someway I will see him again. He was a good bird and these days I have been missing him terribly. But sooner or later, we all have to let go of all physical existence and move on to the unknown while life as we know it on Earth will continue to go on.

 Rest in Peace, my little bird. Till we meet again.

“And can it be that in a world so full and busy, the loss of one creature makes a void so wide and deep that nothing but the width and depth of eternity can fill it up!”-Charles Dickens

-D

Despite the unconscious decisions (some of them were very thoughtless) I made in the past, I have still been dealing with their consequences. I may try to forget them, but life has her own ways of making me learn the lessons of my actions despite the fact that the actions I did–I have done based on the levels of awareness I have at the time—I am not at all times a perfect being. All moments may have been perfect but my decisions may have not.

 The present is the time for new choices while the future holds plenty of possibilities. One action will lead me to one or two possible moments in the future. Other actions will lead me to different results. Just like planting: don’t expect to reap some watermelons if you plant pea seeds. Heck, sometimes I don’t even remember what I plant because there are too many seeds and I’ve done my share of unconscious planting!

 Something I read came to mind when I was writing this: a book, then made movie “The Five People You Meet in Heaven” I don’t know who would surprise me on the other side (though I do have some usual suspects)–that has crossed path with me in this side for some heavenly or hellish reasons—and we don’t even realize we change each other’s destiny because we are never fully aware of our actions. Some unconscious actions, perhaps, look inevitable and beyond our controls but hopefully those which we can control, we are fully aware. My actions have some impacts in your life and vice versa.

“‎There are 5 people you meet in heaven. Each of us was in your life for a reason. You may not have known the reason at the time, and that is what heaven is for. For understanding your life on earth. This is the greatest gift God can give to you: to understand what happened in your life. To have it explained. It is the peace you have been searching for.”  -The Five People You Meet in Heaven

“‎There are 5 people you meet in heaven. Each of us was in your life for a reason. You may not have known the reason at the time, and that is what heaven is for. For understanding your life on earth. This is the greatest gift God can give to you: to understand what happened in your life. To have it explained. It is the peace you have been searching for.” -The Five People You Meet in Heaven

 An easy example would be someone I live with. Just like me, he’s the products of many things—past and present, the conscious and unconscious, his actions and others’.  One single gesture from someone may have made him a better person (which I am grateful), because I am the one living with him every single day. Your actions in the past may mean a happier me today because you have touched him in a way that creates a better him. Or the other way around.  

  “Each affects the other, and the other affects the next, and the world is full of stories, but the stories are all one.” -The Five People You Meet in Heaven

“Each affects the other, and the other affects the next, and the world is full of stories, but the stories are all one.” -The Five People You Meet in Heaven

 Choose consciously, wisely and carefully if we can because what we do impact others somehow, someway, not just you and the people/person standing in front of you.

 -D (Images taken by me )

I have been waiting for spring—it’s supposed to be my favorite season. It’s supposed to bring light after dark, gloomy winter and indeed, it has been. What is it in me that’s longing for it–like a lonely soul lurking in the dark, waiting for some glimpse of light– Yet my (physical) body seems to resist it and it aches. My eyes are red, my head aches, my nose is runny. Some stiff joints. I feel fatigue and I have been tired.

I simply can't resist...

I simply can’t resist…

Spring is not the best of seasons. Cold and flu are two good reasons; wind and rain and other sorrow, warm today and cold tomorrow.

Spring is not the best of seasons.
Cold and flu are two good reasons;
wind and rain and other sorrow,
warm today and cold tomorrow. ~Author Unknown

 I don’t know how sickness can make one a little bit poetic but I feel like I finally meet my dream lover after a long and winding road and then get broken hearted. I can see that there is nothing about the ‘dream lover’ that is not to like: bright and sunny, warm and lovely, pretty and flowery. Everything about him is beautiful. You want to embrace his welcoming presence.

It was one of those March days when the sun shines hot and the wind blows cold: when it is summer in the light, and winter in the shade.

It was one of those March days when the sun shines hot and the wind blows cold: when it is summer in the light, and winter in the shade. ~Charles Dickens, Great Expectations

 But…something about him makes me dizzy, moody and little gloomy. Or maybe I’ll just have to wait a little longer to get used to the lover’s presence. Maybe I’ll eventually adapt—to the abundant beauty and pain that he brings.

-D (Photos taken by me)

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